Its been so long since I have been here I am at a lost for words...... I have not been having such good luck and I am feeling the wieght of the world I do not have someone to speak to my choice I just wanted to reach out and say Hi
I hope you are doing better Courtclerk54. Experimental, you are very active here. It gives me hope as it has been years since I was here, and it is very different now. There were tons of members, and of course the appearance has changed. It concerns me. Maybe this place is a hoax, or something else, not meant to be helpful. So, I am being cautious and bet that's why the membership is down, and why others don't come back once they sign up. Not sure though, just speculating. I will be checking back regularly.
Hi CateLiz, thanks for posting. Sorry you're having a hard time though Yeah, it looks different and deserted here. I joined back in 2010. We had a number of website crashes where the whole forum disappeared, and had to be put back again. This last time, I think it was down for weeks. It must have been disruptive for so many people. There's also a pop-up "scam ad" that I've been getting here which gives this place a bad feeling. I hope the admin is still around and able to address it sometime.
I used to come here every day and it was my safe haven. I posted so much of myself here unfiltered. I hope more people come back. It's hard to find the forum online and then to feel at home when there are so many changes. It's been getting quieter over the years anyway which was sad too.
You seem like such a nice soul, Experimental. I hope you are doing alright. I haven't read through all your posts yet, but I will.
It's nice to have a place to be unfiltered. I'm always on guard, trying to appear "normal", and I feel sure I don't. I think others see me as awkward as I am uncomfortable in social situations. I do think I'm learning how to fit in, while still being myself. I sound like a teenager. I'm about to be 47. Yikes.
The last time I used this site was in 2011-2012. I was in a real bad place. Cutting again. Flooded by memories often. Just re-cooperated from breast cancer. My partner was not supportive. I lost my job. I had insomnia. No medication helped. I'm glad that's over. It took a long time. Life isn't so bad now, but it takes a lot of work and guessing.
I came back because I have no place to vent. I don't want to implode or start on that scary road again. I can only do this at work though...
Anyway, I hope all is well with you. I'll check back later.
I sound like a teenager too. It's good that you're trying to do stuff though and learning to fit in. I'm learning that too and trying to be more open to experience. Did you have another username back when you were here back in 2011? I was here a lot back then, and different from now.
I hope you feel free to vent. Are you going to therapy at the moment? I'm not. Life's so different without it, and being on this forum used to be so focused on therapy and space to put stuff between sessions.